My intimate shibari & sensual experience in Berlin with Olivier

I met Olivier over lunch. We spoke about life, about intimacy, about his deep passion for caring for people, for witnessing them in their vulnerability, their bodies, their desires. What struck me most was the way he spoke about presence. Not doing, not performing, but truly being with someone. I felt a strong sense of trust almost immediately. A natural connection, as if we had known each other for a long time.

A few weeks later, he invited me for a session at IKSK in Berlin, a sex-positive community space where workshops and private sessions coexist. It was a Friday afternoon. The sky was cloudy but bright, and from the fourth floor, the view over the Spree and Holzmarkt Community project area felt calm, almost suspended in time.

There was something deeply exciting about coming there for myself. To take my pleasure seriously.

Olivier welcomed me with tea. We sat and spoke about my intentions, my boundaries, my desires. He asked what I did not desire, if I had any injuries, and how I related to power and whether I preferred him in service or in a more dominant role.

He asked me to choose three words. I paused and tuned into myself.

Anticipation. Surprise. Serenity.

I desired to be taken on a journey which left room for surprises and mystery, to drop into my body and feel a sense of harmony and inner calmness.

As agreed together he confirmed that the session would involve ropes. He asked about impact, about touch, about tantra massage, about genital contact. I felt very safe to say yes, while being clear that I didn’t want anything to enter my body.

We began with eye gazing. I felt myself melting into his gaze, sensing a genuine kindness, a grounded generosity. It made me feel deeply safe. Then we breathed together. Slowly, I dropped into my body, into the present moment. I was wearing a top, high stockings, and underwear.

He began by tying my hands on the floor, then my upper body. Almost immediately, I felt how delicious it was to be held by the ropes, to be able to let go, to rest into his structure, his presence.

There was a quiet confidence in him. A way of listening with his hands, with my breath, with the micro-movements of my body. He blindfolded me and I loved being in the dark. It allows me to go inward, to feel more.

He combined rope work with subtle massage and pressure points. My body was gradually being shaped, held, guided. The ropes tightened and released as he moved me, as if we were in a silent dance.

My thoughts began to fade. I became more present. More inside myself.

At some point, I felt a gentle arousal, but more than that, a deep connection to my breath, to sensation.

He played with my hair, pulling certain strands, then gathering all of it in his hands. The sensation was exquisite. A perfect tension, a grounding through the scalp that felt both intense and deeply relaxing.

Then he brought me to standing. One leg on the floor, the other lifted. He removed my underwear, slowly, with my consent.

I was blindfolded, tied, exposed and then, within minutes, I was suspended. My legs open, my body lifted, fully exposed.

I felt incredibly vulnerable in this moment.  To be seen like this, by a man I had met only once, and yet to feel completely safe was something entirely new.

I was observing the confusion of feelings inside me: a trace of shame, the impulse to close my legs and protect myself, and at the same time a strong sense of empowerment and the almost revolutionary feeling of being safe in that position.  It felt intimidating and at the same time, incredibly erotic, liberating and powerful.

I felt like a suspended queen. My body no longer felt like something to hide or protect, but something I could simply inhabit with a sense of pride.

And what moved me the most was this: he did nothing. He did not take. He did not cross the boundary. He did not exploit the position. He simply held the space.

After some time, he slowly brought me down.

Olivier introduced another layer of sensation through impact.

He explored my body with different tools, alternating between soft, diffused sensations that spread slowly through my skin, and sharper, more precise touches that awakened my body in a completely different way. A dance of sensations, guiding me deeper into myself.

Then, still blindfolded and partially tied, he guided my hands back to my body.

And stepped back, giving me space to connect with myself. I didn’t expect it but it felt great!

Being with myself, in that moment, blindfolded and witnessed without pressure or expectation, felt quietly empowering. I allowed myself a moment to feel, to enjoy. It was intimate, raw, and surprisingly peaceful. Afterwards, he guided me back into stillness.

I was lying on the floor. Still tied. After a while I smelled a delicious floral scent that awakened back my senses. Then he held me, massaged my head, guided my breath. A deep sense of serenity invaded me.

Even the slight discomfort of my hands tied behind my back became something I could soften into.

After this kaleidoscope of sensations: ropes, suspension, intensity, arousal, impact, scent, I was simply there, breathing.

After some time, he gently brought me back.

We ended as we began: eye gazing. But something had shifted. There was a silent dialogue between our bodies, our energies. Something beyond words.

What I appreciated the most was how much he enjoyed giving, not taking but offering.

Coming down from the room, I was floating and felt a beautiful sensation of high.

When I reflected on my three words: Anticipation, Surprise, Serenity, I realised that he had fulfilled my wishes way beyond expectations.

Mission accomplie. Merci Olivier.

Pauline Marie-Antoinette

Author

Pauline is a poetry writer, performer, experience creator, and intimacy and kinks workshop facilitator. She believes in the power of arts and creativity to be profound vehicles for change and loves to empower people to free their inner artist and turn sensuality into a real art form. Her solo-show, "An Erotic Poetry Odyssey" is an invitation to deepen intimacy, explore conscious kinks while challenging societal taboos. Pauline designs experiences for couples, retreats and workshops in Berlin and around the world!